Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Imagine

Imagine yourself at the edge of a cliff at the edge of the world in the company of shadows; pale faces flickering in and out of the darkness who wail with the wind to a tragic melody only known to them. It seems there is no sun, nor is there a moon, only the accursed gray glow pitch black offers to spur one onward into an illusionary web of optimistic determination. The wail of the wind mixed with something else… what is it…? The sirens? No. My advice is to heed not their call as they languidly sit before the distant oasis you think you may see, but in truth, you don’t. One more step and I guarantee you’ll be meeting your maker much earlier than you expected… the drop is enormous. You’ll be dead before impact.

This barren wasteland lies at the edge of comprehension, reason, and fleeting imagination. I’ve seen it not. This place is hard to find… and very few seek it. It is rumored you might find it fifty ticks away from the great barrier reef of waking dreams, where the nameless ones wander headless and heartless... grotesquely floating over a sea of murderous faces too numerous to distinguish. These faces, looking skyward, blanket the ground amidst the spiny barnacles that have broken off the lumbering, mythical black whales of heartbreak that forever patrol the cold oceans. These whales: great, grotesque leviathans 100 ft long and weighing 50 tons - their melancholy song it is said, so intensely loud, can rupture eardrums. Like icebergs that quietly float in the night, blocking out the moon, these creatures of myth obliterate any chance of spying the gray sand and shimmering faces down below, where no souls dare to go.

This cliff you stand on is not a natural structure but once a skyscraper of old, crafted in glass, metal, and stone. This barren wasteland you think you’ve traversed isn’t a wasteland at all, rather, it was once a great city, long ago filled in with red dust, it’s contents forever hidden, it’s treasures lost. If am army of laborers were to take up shovels and dig, in about three decades of painstaking work, they’d finally uncover the rotted innards of a once glorious civilization… a city on an island. They’d find rusted mechanical monstrosities, a never-ending sea of stone, rubbish, and metal, and then there would be the bodies. Hundreds, seemingly millions, rotted away, decayed ghastly eyes frightfully gazing toward the sky… decayed eyes searching for a god that never came… a sad lot truly.

Listen. There it is again. Shhhh. Block out the wind and the sirens and the tempestuous, sad voices, do you hear it? It’s the faintest whisper of a noise. A muffled ringing singing a hundred feet below, deep in the bowels of the smoky red ground. If you could turn invisible, into a phantasm, and phase through the dirt and travel the necessary distance in search of this sound you’d be led to the skeletal remains of a decrepit concrete structure. This structure is hollow inside - the insistent sands not allowed in. This building is twenty stories tall, partitioned into rooms; living spaces it appears. At the very heart there is a wooden table. On this table sits an antique device. The ringing you hear originated here, in this dusty, dark, airless apartment. This machine created by man, has rung for centuries and will continue to do so even after you’ve left, lived out your life, and crumbled into dust.

59 comments:

The Snakehead said...

Hermes, I take my hat off to you. Your writing skills, I can only admire.

Flawless.

And I'm gonna repeat myself: to say you're a good writer is an understatement.

shana p. said...

very haunting... it actually reminded me of dreams I have had....

LeeLoreya said...

oh I'm rubbing my hands because I need to tread this but right now am cooking dinner for the parents oh I'll check back later.



(that was probably the most inept comment you ever received, dear sir)

LeeLoreya said...

"tread this"? uh, no take off the T.

Hermes said...

Snakehead. I appreciate the sentiment, really. You're much too kind. Thanks.

Cheesecakey. Coincidentally it was a dream I had as well. Spooky.

LeeLoreya. "tread" is an apt word, no worries there. I'm excited to read what you think of my humble piece.

Sar. Thanks.

I'm pretty proud of that sentence. I envisioned nuclear devastation that was mistook for Armageddon.

Hermes said...

Sar. Armageddon... minus the second coming of Christ and the raising of the dead, of course.

The world obviously continued on and the turn of events leading to their demise is now but a hushed myth. The poor souls in the piece will not even live on in memory. Even the name of the city has been forgotten. By the way, it was New York... ;)

Hermes said...

Sar. Ah yes, the name has been forgotten... by men.

However... you and I are Gods. Like those deities of old antiquity... we lazily sit and indifferently view the events unfold from above.

Adams Avenue said...

When reading this entry the first thing that comes to my mine is that it is a subconcious description of what you might assume pergatory to be like.

You're on a cliff - you're looking down into or onto what might even be the gateway to hell.

The red dust you describe could be symbolic of the color of blood or more importantly torture.

This apartment with ringing seems timeless. A timeless ring - maybe almost a reference to time in itself. Something stagnant to remind you that where you are really exists while at the same time is making you crazy.

Interesting and deep is this dream of yours.

I wonder why you never looked up.

The Snakehead said...

Okay, so is it just you and Sar having a twosome today or can I join?

Hermes said...

Sar. Don't mind if I do. Thankyou. Let's sit back, you and I, and enjoy the soothing song of the lute.

Colonialave. Funny you mention that, I had Dante in mind when I began writing it. Very good.

I love your analysis of this dream.

In my warped mind, the ringing obviously is a telephone, and the caller is God... checking on the status of things.

Hermes said...

Nah Snake, it's an orgy... and admittance is free.

Adams Avenue said...

God on the phone? Wow, that would be a great conversation.

Your dreams remind me of my own. I've had a dream where I was the only one in the world Satan saved - for personal reasons of course. I might write about it sometime.

Do you hold a religion? What do you believe in?

Hermes said...

Colonialave. That sounds like a fascinating dream. I look forward to reading about it.

I'm not religious, nor have I ever been. However, I am spiritual and I adhere to my personal beliefs and values. I do believe in God but not the same God others do. I'm well versed in the Bible but I believe only a few of the events depicted whithin are true.

Religion has never really been important to me... I've never really given a shit. Nor have I ever had the desire to incorporate it into my life... and I'm happy with that.

Hermes said...

Sar. A violinist it is... and I have no preference with my grapes... as ong as their seedless and sweet.

Religion is completely political and I've noticed it only breeds ignorance and hate. Also, I can't stand the fact the bible teaches to do good so as to AVOID being sent to Hell. Rewards and consequences... how ignorant.

I should choose my words wiser, especially with words spoken to the Snakehead. Plus I'm a pretty jealous motherfucker, and I'd want you all to myself.

Adams Avenue said...

Hermes - I follow the same lead. My God is just that. Mine. My faith is what it is and that's what its going to be. But I do believe in Karma and fate. I believe in working hard and doing a good job. I believe laughter is one of the most effective ways of healing. I pray to my deceased family members for support and they usually answer all my prayers.

Sar - Your comment:
"I've always believed that religion is mostly a political movement rather than a spiritual one, which is rather sad. What's more sad is the poor souls that blindly follow it."

is interesting. I can understand why you think this. Religion and politics are hand and hand in our nation right now unfortunatly. Some may consider religion to be the next big "political marketing strategy" in order to attract large sums of people for voting purposes.

Religions are very interesting organizations. On the most basic level they are based on peace and yet they can tend to promote mass waves of extremism which leads to violence. I suggest religion get out of politics as soon as possible. If we do not seperate church and state it may rip our nation apart in the future.

Hermes said...

Colonialave. I'm not too keen, or knowledgable, on politics. So there's nothing I can really add to the whole politics and religion issue. However, I can say I despise the rampant, radical conservatism(espoused by the Republican party) that is so in vogue right now. It makes me want to fucking puke. I'm one of the ones who didn't vote for Bush.

I fucking hate that cocksucker.

Adams Avenue said...

He isn't very popular at the moment. Its his own problem.

I understand and agree with you. The conservative/Republican party is taking control of the nation and I am just hoping that Bush doesn't fuck us all over and appoint a hardcore conservative judge to replace Sandra Day O'Conner. Why she resigned . . . God only knows.

I encourage you to read up on politics. Some hate it. Fine. Some like me love it. I want to be aware of what's going so I know when to rebel.

Adams Avenue said...

Sar - you make very good points: How can people follow something they don't understand? That's why I choose to have my "own" God or faith as it may. I don't understand OR agree with catholicism so I'm making up my own deal as I go along at my own pace on this little path we call life.

In order to save a forest, we must first remove a Bush.

Hermes said...

I'm reminded of a quote from a movie... The Wild One starring Marlon Brando. Brando plays a character named Johnnie, who is the leader of a motorcycle gang. Someone asks him the following question... his response mirrors MY philosophy on life, religion, and politics.

"So what ARE you rebelling against?"

"Whatchu got?"

Hermes said...

Tacit. Now that you mention it, it definitely has a T.S Eliot vibe to it... it's incredibly abstract, intentionally so... open to interpretation.

Oh and thanks for saying that, I take that as a huge compliment.

Sar. Brando was awesome in that movie. I have a "Wild One" poster hanging in my house.

By the way, if I saw you sitting before me in a school uniform I think I'd be staring at your legs too. ;p

LeeLoreya said...

Whoa brother that Sar lady sure isn't keeping her tongue in her mouth ;)

Alright Mr Hermes, I love the underneath the earth imagery, boiling with worms and guilt it's *lovely* though I suspect you would puke on that word. In fact, I think the producers of War of the Worlds or The Island could've used a little of your help to give their movies a twist of pure anguish.

The Snakehead said...

Hermes, what happened to all the comments?!

LyZa said...

Imagination sure is a great weapon to use.

Hermes said...

Snakehead. Like the mythical city in my piece they will forever live on in our memories.

Damned Queen. Weapon against whom?

Scribe Called Steff said...

I'm too tired to read everyone's comments, which I normally do, but not tonight.

And I don't want this comment to take away from the rest of your work, which is always really good, and although this might sound strange, is one of the few sites where I wish I had a magic eraser to make your small errors go away so it could be as good as it deserves to be.

THAT all said... this is the first piece that makes me think you might have it in you to write a really bitching, dark kind of novel.

Something about it makes me think, too, of a novel that doesn't have much to do with what you're speaking of here (other than the haunting urban desolation you write about), but conveys that same darkly foreboding spirit:

A brilliant book by an Irish (expat) writer named Colum McCann, "This Side of Brightness," which might be commercially obscure, I guess, but we read a lot in this town and we like our Brit writers.

It's a book about the tunnelbuilders in New York, and about homelessness... his economy of language is brilliant. His dark imagery of the "other side" of urban life is really, really affective, and something I think you might stylistically find A) inspiring, and B) something to draw upon.

And yes, this piece does evoke something along those lines for me.

The link to McCann's novel on Amazon.

Scribe Called Steff said...

(And what, is that email by way of frickin' donkey?)

Scribe Called Steff said...

(Just reading the reviews on Amazon, and don't read the BIG review that starts them off... It tells too much about who the protagonists are. I knew fuck all when I started, and the author is VERY stingy about the details he delivers, and the methods in which he delivers them, and rightfully fucking so, because he's brilliant at it.

This PUTZ of a fucking reviewer doesn't GET that we don't need to know the details about these people in order to be drawn into the story.

And the descriptions of the sandhogs' lives under the city... man. Wow.)

jazz said...

i love this. i think it is definitely one of my favorites of yours.

i love going to strange places...borges' library of babel...narnia...hogwarts...

Hermes said...

Steff. Sounds really interesting. I'll definitely add it to my list... I'll be at the library stocking up on some much needed reading material next week.

Jazz. Imaginary cities within imaginary lands within imaginary worlds. Like a beautiful, perfect Matroyshka Doll... and... thanks.

LeeLoreya said...

so it's okay now hermes, no embarrassing 170 comment talk, just people congratulating you? that is what you want don't you?

-G.D. said...

Another pat on your back seems a bit of an overkill, really...you have over 40 comments saying how awesome you are...and yes, you are, but I must be creative too...even in your comments forum...I must shine.

Could I just give you a good smack in the ass and call it even?

Hermes said...

Tattooed Brain. I see where you're going with this... In the situation you just described in less words... I'd have to say... this place will find you... then it will keep you. Invisible walls are erected and you will eventually find youself lost with no compass or stars.

LeeLoreya. I've noticed a 170 comment, private conversation about penis's and blowjobs might possibly dissuade someone else from leaving feedback, or yes, leaving a compliment. Like I'd really care under normal circumstances, however, I liked this piece and I'm interested to know if anyone else liked it as well.

G.D. A smack in the ass is fine by me. While you're at it slip a couple of bills into my G.

Adrian said...

Plugged into that Lovecraftian Dream Cycle of death and foreboding again, but with Mieville like language?

I find that not eating spicy food to late before bedtime keeps these visions out of my head.

Creepy.

Hermes said...

Aydreeyin. I was reminded recently of a quote by Picasso.

"All art is theft."

I'm guilty as charged my friend.

Adrian said...

Picasso rocks. I'm still pissed off my Sunday Church money helped purchase a Picasso Blue Period piece for the Vatican. Fuckers.

This piece surprised me. I often forget that you do the dark fantastic thing quite well.

My favorite Picasso quote is: "I'd like to live like a poor man with lots of money."

Adams Avenue said...

Hermes - I don't know if you've ever seen the movie "What Dreams May Come" but it is a movie about Heaven and Hell and the search for your soul mate and there is a scene in the movie that almost mimics your entry. You should watch it. Its an amazing movie.

WordWhiz said...

I'm am clearly nowhere near ethereal or existential enough for your imaginative composition. I read it twice and still couldn't grasp what it was you were trying to convey. The imagery, as always in your stories, was awesome. But the meaning eluded me. Sorry. Maybe I should learn to be less honest so as not to illustrate my ignorance, huh?

Hermes said...

Colonialave. I've seen it and I love it. Visually... it's a fucking masterpiece. The symbolism and images are stunning.

I have a very good idea which scene you are referring to. I hadn't thought of "What dreams may come" when I wrote this but if I did, I can't help but wonder how much better this piece would have been.

Wordwhiz. You're not alone. The meaning has eluded me... and I WROTE IT. In all actuality, there is no meaning... or rather, how YOU interpret this piece IS the true meaning.

Jay. Anything for my fans... all 2 of 'em. Black or red?

Adams Avenue said...

I'd agree Herm. The visual images are amazing. I just saw it again this past weekend and was teary. Its such a sweet movie. I recommend anyone who is reading this to watch it. Its amazing.

WordWhiz said...

"All two of them" my ass!! Here I am adding comment number FIFTY-FREAKIN' TWO!!!

Rae Ann said...

I'm a little late getting here, but I also thought of What Dreams May Come when I was reading it. I cried through that entire movie, from the grief and the beauty.

Charlie Loudowl said...

Solid post. Calm, cool, collected - I dig.

Hermes said...

Trite. If I see far it is because I'm a dwarf who sits on the shoulders of giants.

Thanks ... truly.

joanne said...

I really did listen, but all I heard was my stomach growling, damnit! I need to get myself a sandwich. You wouldn't happen to be a single Italian man over 30, would you? Just kidding.

Hermes said...

Joanne. Could you grab me one as well? Turkey... on wheat, hold the mayo.

Thanks for visiting.

By the way... I'm Italian, I'm a man... oh, but I'm under 30.

The Snakehead said...

Mmmmmm.... Italian man. SO FUCKING HOT. You don't happen to speak Italian, do you? If you do, I'm gonna have to track you down and jump on your whether you like it or not.

Just kidding.

Maybe not.

Hermes said...

Snakehead. I'm third generation Italian. I speak more Spanish than I do Italian.

Sar. This talk about "jumping" isn't coming from my mouth... or I should say, flowing from MY fingertips.

joanne said...

Under 30, too bad.

joanne said...

That being said, you have a lot to look forward to, especially since you are Italian. ;-)

Men around 30-45 are amazing in every way! Enjoy life to the fullest!

Hermes said...

"Under 30, too bad."

Too bad indeed. I have the wit and maturity level of a 35 year old man... and the stamina and vigor of a hot-blooded Italian male in his mid twenties... oh well.

emeralda said...

hey hermes.
it s too funny how even in the blogosphere there seems to be no coincidences.
you just captured a mood (or i read it into your words but that is of course even a greater sign of your writing skills which with words, as snakehead says, can only be understated) that i was trying to capture. of course, still different, but i guess i am just lacking words. too bad my mom didn't raise me bilinugal although she is american. it fucking sucks at times. english isn't the flat simple language that many people claim it to be, putting their antiamericanism/greatbrittanism into the same box as their very inept judging of the english language. they just don't have the vocabulary. thats all.

it s very very beautiful it is.

Sealegs said...

you're sexy

Hermes said...

Piranha. Ah, yes...thank you!

Back on topic...

Yeah, I see what you're saying. Moods, emotions, feelings, sometimes cannot be verbalized even in our own native tongues, but definitely can be shared... right down to the nitpicky, specific ones. Although your english might be a little shaky, Piranha, I always understand what you're getting at... don't worry.

Sizzle. Back off topic... Thanks! I'm glad you like what you see...

..did you like what you read though? ;)

WordWhiz said...

Okay...the number of comments you get is beginning to reach positively ridiculous proportions! At this rate, you could just publish your damn blog and have a best seller. Screw the great Hermes novel! Your popularity is incredible. I just hope your ego isn't keeping pace! I wouldn't want you to forget us little people!
:~)

Hermes said...

Vexation. I didn't think about it that way. I didn't think about the phone call deep down below being an answer. I interpreted it as yet another enigma... as yet another unanswered question.

I'm glad you liked the piece. I hope to read more of what you think.

Wordwhiz. 70 comments. Wow... It's dizzying. I'm fairly certain the number of comments will return to reasonable numbers on my next post. I think this is a flash in the pan.

Or my name's Mr. Underhill.

RuKsaK said...

Comment number 72.

You know why?

We have a man writing here -this man Hermes is fucking writing!

joanne said...

Well, I understand all of that about the hot-blooded stamina (a good thing) but I bet you would agree (as most men mid-20s) that you are not looking for a serious relationship with a woman 10 years older than you are. That is why I do not date younger men, they just want fun and nothing more. :-(

Adams Avenue said...

Jo-anne: In a general sense young mid-20 men want to play. But then again, all men at some point want to play. I know plenty of men in their mid-20s that want to commit. You just have to find the right one. Maybe you're chasing the wrong kind of guy?

Mad Munkey said...

You are a gifted writer, but I keep drifting off your topic into my own realms. Must focus...Off to try again.